FYI: i felt really lousy about myself today.

1. pimple breakout due to heavy stage makeup during the play.
2. i have a mountain of hmk undone that i didn't feel like doing.
3. i feel like i don't know crap about my subjects.
4. i just felt like sleeping the whole day.
5. i keep day dreaming about the weekend.
6. i really miss my friends :(
7. i need more free time to concentrate on my work.
8. maybe i should stop procrastinating.
9. i need to get my priorities right.

yeah. that's about all that's on my mind.
there's a thing or two that i didn't mention but
it's nothing.

Floorball. yes floorball.
i love it.
i really do.
but just one thing i hate about it is that
the possibility of getting kicked out from school team
just makes me lessen my passion for it.
i know it's neccesary and all, but ugh.
I HATE IT. putting it bluntly it means:
you are lousy.
i hate being judged on my interests.
i joined it because i like it.
who are you to say if i am in or out?
but then again,
it
is
neccesary.
hai. it just breaks my heart to
compete with the people i love.
i just hope you get my point.
not trying to be mean,
but that's the way i see it.

i hope i didn't hear wrongly this morning.
anyway even if i did it wouldn't matter
because the rumour isn't true. *roll eyes*
turning my head at the name doesn't mean a thing can.
but it was embarassing. why the heck did i turn?!
maybe i had a neck spasm. HAHAHA
zz.
keeping my fingers crossed that nobody remembers anything.
gah.

i feel like i need some spark in my christian life.
i really want to be close to God again.
not just treat it like routine.
there was this incident that happened on sunday morning!
lemme tell you the story.

me, sonia and maddie were going to board the bus 85 to church @
punggol when i realised i had no coins to pay for the bus fare as
my card was empty, so we moved just a bit slowly towards the bus
as we were fumbling for coins.

and then there were two idiotic uncles behind us that started shouting
at us to hurry up. i repeat. they SHOUTED at us at the top of their
lungs. everybody was like staring. i had to resist my urge to
give them the finger.. like seriously.. but we just kept quiet of course.

it wasn't over yet. so after the 3 of us boarded, we were still fumbling
so they got real pissed and started SHRIEKING VULGARITIES at us..
" you effing bitches eff eff eff eff !@#$%^&"
we were utterly shocked la. our eyes were like about to pop out.
what the hell is wrong with these people!
it was like 7 am and there were nobody else!
like as if it will kill them just to be patient for a few seconds?
why the need to shout and scream like kids?????!!!!!
none of us had coins unfortunately so we didn't know what to
do. and the driver seemed to not want to drive off unless we paid.
and then you know what happened?
JANETTE BOARDED THE BUS. *HALLELUJAH* WITH COINS.
THE THREE OF US LOOKED AT EACH OTHER AND THEN AT
JANETTE AND THOUGHT THE SAME THING.
"THANK YOU GOD!"
seriously. what is the possibility of boarding the same
bus with her AND she even brought along coins.
this really convicted us la.
waow. another miracle i witness.
although it isn't like some huge spectacle,
but at that moment we were really helpless
and sanwiched between the evil uncles and the bus driver.
and then she came along.
like some walking miracle.
WOW.